What to do, what to do ..

Lately, it has been getting really difficult, my mistakes that I have made, that are in my past, are coming back to haunt me. I have changed a lot in the past year, I don't deal with peoples shit anymore, and I have made less mistakes. But the memories won't leave. I am so hurt and crushed that I can't do right anymore, its really hard to think of what is wrong and right. I need a boost of energy. I need help. I'm hurting the one that deserves it least. I can't do it anymore. I need to let go, but it would hurt to much. I need to do something, because where I am right now, is not okay..

Just for Fun

I am currently sitting in FCS, there is one more day of school left and then we go to Valleyfair. Im really excited. I am going to be with Cj, my best friend Emily, and her tool of a boyfriend Lucas:). Cant wait ! So excited for summer can't waitttt !! ughhh ! so much fun in the sun !! ohh and i hate this classs !....haa

I am...

I am a daughter, a sister, a granddaughter, a niece, a cousin. A friend, a student, a young girl, and a grown women. I am confident and scared, terrified and excited,I am loving and caring, and thoughtful and hopeful. I am sick and tired. I am shy and friendly, careful and careless. I am broken and hole. I am misunderstood, misguided, and mislead. I am hardworking and determined, but a little scared on the inside. I wish on stars and dream my dreams. I pray to god and cry my tears. I smile on the outside while I'm dying on the inside. I listen to others that do not listen to me. I walk on eggshells and feel the fire. I believe in passion but not true love. I love you and I push you away. I want you, but not so close. I am everything and nothing all at once and all I want is for you to be in love with me.

-Wisdomッ

Dream big dreams because little dreams have no magic.

Never regret anything because at one point, that is all you wanted.

You can close your eyes to something you don't want to see, but you cannot close your heart to something you do not want.

It's crazy right? To love someone who has hurt you. It's crazier to believe that someone who has hurt you loves you.

I'm not going to stress over you anymore. It's not worth it. I tried to work something out, but you just ignored it. I'm not trying to say I dont want you because I do. All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you.